I’m going to try and write directly from the heart.
Try to be as open and honest as I possibly can.
As though speaking to a deeply trusted friend—
or perhaps even a professional psychologist.
SPEAKING FROM THE HEART - Session 1
It’s as though I awaken to each new day feeling like a totally helpless victim of some unimaginably cruel and diabolical psychological/sociological experiment.
I fear I have been forever altered as a person—that I will never ever be the same person that I once was—ever again.
I feel as though I will “never ever” be “truly happy” ever again.
My entire view of the world in which I exist has been forever altered.
I’ve discovered that there’s nothing quite as cruel and psychologically tormenting as knowing that—whilst you’re only trying to do some “real genuine good in the world”—you’re being viewed as a crazy, irrational, irresponsible and dangerous lunatic.
The overall air of nonchalance and blindly apathetic silence from society in the face of such obvious and openly displayed abuse and horror is indescribably gut wrenching.
I’m finding it incredibly difficult to be around certain people, that only two years prior, I genuinely looked forward to seeing and spending time with.
I watch people’s eyes a lot closer than I ever did before.
I’ve learned through real life daily experience, the “true meaning” of the term “gaslighting.”
I feel I can now better understand and empathise with how victims of pack rape might feel whilst being viciously cross examined by their attacker’s legal counsel.
I sometimes feel as though I’ve been murdered, but I’m still alive and breathing.
I feel that evil manipulation, treachery and controlled disinformation is not only rewarded, but applauded—and justice is a fallacy.
I feel I now fully comprehend the meaning of “true evil.”
Despite having somehow managed to retain my sense of humour—I’ve become deeply cynical and find myself cursing the radio, TV and mainstream media daily.
I’d never imagined or believed it possible to develop such a powerful and unbreakable bond, with so many people I’ve never met.
Most of all—I hope and pray that this ongoing diabolically promoted, self perpetuating, altruistically driven mental torture and slow kill annihilation of my fellow human beings will ultimately be recognised and brought to an end.
You put in words much of what I am thinking. Had lunch with my garden club ladies yesterday and walked away shaking my head at their willful ignorance! Jab injury is accepted as autoimmune disease for one member who wouldn’t even engage in dialogue about the C19 vaccine having possible side effects. She and other ladies recounted their list of pharmaceuticals being ingested as though it was some kind of sacred text.
I wonder each day how to prepare my granddaughters for the grim future they face and feel guilty for being able to live a conscious existence while surrounded by those who choose to drink the koolaid on a daily basis. My Substack connections are truly a lifeline! Thank you for sharing.
John-- Great visual image. And, yup, total fellow feeling. It's disorienting, alienating, and maddening to seemingly be surrounded/amongst blindness and zombiedom as massacre/warfare is taking place on the entire humanity. Continue to download your anguish and horror, as needed. You are sooooooooooooooooo not alone in those inner torments over this whole aggressive, savage, merciless OPERATION. Tight hug.